August 22, 2010 was the first full day of being engaged. The first full day with a ring on my left ring finger. The first full day looking forward to forever with someone I loved.
August 22, 2011 was the last full day I lived in Sandy, Utah. The last full day I spent living in an apartment with someone I would no longer be calling my husband. The last full day of being surrounded by the pain within those walls.
So many mixed emotions that this one date in August holds.
Today, I want it to be a turning point. While today and the past two years remind me of pain, loss, and heartbreak... I want to turn it around.
I will never be able to change what these three dates mean - what happened. The truth is, I will never be able to control what happens in the future either. However, going forward, I want this to be an emotional turning point for me.
I'm letting go of the past and I'm letting go of the outcome. I accept this as God's plan - the trials He's given me - the scars - the new strength.
I fully embrace this life that has been given to me. The lessons I've learned. I've accepted that there are some people who aren't meant to stay in your life and that letting go of them will allow you to live a life truer to you. I've accepted that death happens - often when you least expect it - and that there is nothing you can do but live a life in honor of them.
And those are things that will never cease in this life.
As each day's sun sets, I remind myself that tomorrow will be new.
Tomorrow will be a gift.
And I remind myself to continue looking up, always.
To this turning point...