Taking the Power Back

"Take your power back from life's whims and other people's agendas."

That's the quote I read this morning from the ever insightful Mastin Kipp. And, boy, did I need to read that. Life has been a real whir lately. Between my day job sucking the life out of me, trying my best to create and market the After Sunset Fall line and grow my business, unexpected dentist/doctors appointments, kicking off a new exercise/eating schedule, etc. it's been a battle trying to stay afloat.

I can't remember the last time I went to bed peacefully, feeling accomplished. There are always ten other things on my to-do list that have yet to be checked off and I let that hang over me. Lately, I've just been feeling defeated. Not only for not having checked off the things on my list but for not checking off the things not on my list. [Lots of nots there.]

The things I need to do for my own sanity, for my growth.

Although I'm not ready to talk about it here on this blog, I've mentioned the fork in the road that I have come to in my life. The opportunities I have been wanting to create. They are going to take some careful planning, some hard work, and a whole lot of faith in myself and in God.
I know that I have to be as best prepared as possible.

But lately, because of all of life's whims and other people's agendas, I've had to put that time of preparation as the last item on my list. That last item that never gets checked off at the end of the day because of all the items before it.

I read this article by Mastin this morning and realized what I have to do.

I have to schedule my day. Every day. Not only do I need to write down the days I have meetings or projects due but I need to write down when to sleep, when to work out, when to think, when to not do anything but watch an hour of my show.

It might seem slightly ridiculous that I need to schedule some of these things into my daily life, but think about it: so many of them are equally as important. If I don’t work out, I probably won’t stay healthy. If I don’t work hard, I probably won’t make money. If I don’t take time to think or meditate, I probably won’t stay sane.

And, yes, there will be the days when I can’t do it all and I need to accept that. [It seems like everyday this week has been one of those days.] But I also need to make sure what I sacrifice on those days isn’t always the same thing. I can’t always sacrifice sleep or my dreams.

I caught myself saying numerous times lately, "I feel so out of control of my own life!"

This will be my way of taking the power back.