Some days, you're going about with your normal life
Finding your new "normalcy" again
Getting into the groove of the life that's been re-routed time and time again.
And you're reminded of the detours;
The reasons life is no longer what it used to be.
Last night, I picked up Missy's ashes from the vet
Nearly two weeks after she left this world
And when I found out it was time to pick them up...
My world shook just a little.
It was as though my body stood still while another version of it kept walking onward
To continue on with what was next.
Picking up her ashes.
I wasn't the same for the remainder of the night.
I felt cranky. Moody. Irritated. Annoyed. Frustrated.
It's like my body just rejected the pain.
And turned it into another emotion.
It's like I heard the "I'm sorry for your loss" phrase one more time and, boom.
My heart was done.
Done dealing with it.
To be honest, I don't know where this post goes from here.
I'm not sure I have a conclusion.
For now, I'll just keep cuddling Stella even more than I used to [like above]
And I'll be grateful that I'm part of a community where posting pictures of you & your pet is totally normal ;)
I'll also probably watch Pretty Little Liars
to take my mind away from the detours until my heart gets back on track.
Speaking of Pretty Little Liars, who watched The Vampire Diaries last night?
[I realize they are un-related]
Oh.My.Gosh. Happy Friday and thanks for all your love & support this year!