Yesterday, I didn't feel like myself. I felt like a robot had been placed in my skin and all joy, free will, and excitement had been drained from my body. It might sound kind of funny at first but the honest truth is - I wasn't me.
I've been learning a lot about myself lately. I've tried to take the time to truly understand who I am, what I need, what makes me feel good, what makes me feel absolutely horrible. Simple truths, really - yet, it's taken me this long to really get to the bottom of myself; of Chelsea. I've learned that I'm deeply in tune with my emotions - whatever they may be at the time. I feel deeply.
And lately, that hasn't been such a pleasure. It's been ever so confusing actually. For the time being, I have to be vague and for that, I apologize but I'm in a time of transition. A time where I'm moving forward with my life. Yet, at the same time, I'm not quite there yet which means I'm still living in a world that is really almost my past. [Are you still with me?] This transitionary time is more trying than I had expected.
So, I have to keep reminding myself about the arrow. Maybe things get confusing and complicated right before the sky clears and everything comes together.
I don't want to become a car that sits idling. I certainly don't want this robot to continue operating my body either. I have to have faith that this is just the slow pull back of the arrow.
I will focus. I will keep aiming.
It's time to focus on the next chapter of my life and in order to do so, I need to refocus my goals, my voice, my place in this world. Because of that, I have decided it's time to rethink my blog. My mind has felt so cluttered lately as I'm sure you can tell from my posts this week. It's time to focus. Breathe. Get ready for the next chapter. I'll be stopping in whenever it feels right and will still be around Twitter and Instagram [@chelseasunset] so you can keep up with me there :)
*Also, special congratulations to Hollie for winning the RoseRags Leopard Poncho giveaway! Thanks again to everyone who entered and, if you didn't win, you can always stop by their website or Facebook page to see what gorgeous ponchos are up for grabs! :)