Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I Will Keep Aiming

Yesterday, I didn't feel like myself. I felt like a robot had been placed in my skin and all joy, free will, and excitement had been drained from my body. It might sound kind of funny at first but the honest truth is - I wasn't me.

I've been learning a lot about myself lately. I've tried to take the time to truly understand who I am, what I need, what makes me feel good, what makes me feel absolutely horrible. Simple truths, really - yet, it's taken me this long to really get to the bottom of myself; of Chelsea. I've learned that I'm deeply in tune with my emotions - whatever they may be at the time. I feel deeply.

And lately, that hasn't been such a pleasure. It's been ever so confusing actually. For the time being, I have to be vague and for that, I apologize but I'm in a time of transition. A time where I'm moving forward with my life. Yet, at the same time, I'm not quite there yet which means I'm still living in a world that is really almost my past. [Are you still with me?] This transitionary time is more trying than I had expected.

So, I have to keep reminding myself about the arrow. Maybe things get confusing and complicated right before the sky clears and everything comes together.

I don't want to become a car that sits idling. I certainly don't want this robot to continue operating my body either. I have to have faith that this is just the slow pull back of the arrow.

I will focus. I will keep aiming.

It's time to focus on the next chapter of my life and in order to do so, I need to refocus my goals, my voice, my place in this world. Because of that, I have decided it's time to rethink my blog. My mind has felt so cluttered lately as I'm sure you can tell from my posts this week. It's time to focus. Breathe. Get ready for the next chapter. I'll be stopping in whenever it feels right and will still be around Twitter and Instagram [@chelseasunset] so you can keep up with me there :)

*Also, special congratulations to Hollie for winning the RoseRags Leopard Poncho giveaway! Thanks again to everyone who entered and, if you didn't win, you can always stop by their website or Facebook page to see what gorgeous ponchos are up for grabs! :)


Ash said...

you take all the time you need, my sweet friend (: we'll still be here

Kelsey Heinze said...

You know what's awesome? Someone who not only understands when it's time to focus on themselves, but also someone who isn't afraid to share it.

I hope you do not feel guilty about this decision because its actually really selfless. Take the time you need to get back to you. It's the only way you'll be able to let that string go and let your arrow fly!

Shayna said...

It's so important to take this time & use it however you need to - for however long you need to. Hugs & prayers for you that these pains ease & this time gets easier for you!

Cassie said...

why why why is life so confusing!! thank goodness for therapy.
i wish i could just wave a wand and have it figured out.
i wish i knew why I got the 'learn life the hard way' hand.
enjoy your break. and remember, just breath. this too shall pass.

thinking of you!!

Hilary said...

Thinking of you girl! We'll still be here - and you know I'll keep stalking ya on Twitter. I love the arrow analogy-so powerful! XOX said...

Newest follower here! Cute blog, I can't wait to read more.

Ashley said...

we'll miss you in the blog world....good luck in this time of transition.....i admire your perseverance and positivity lady!

ELISA said...

Nice blog you have...wanna follow each other?
please follow with GFC, just leave me a comment and I'll follow u back!

elise said...

new[est] follwer. its an amazing community we have here, we will all still be around!

stop by sometime!

Holly said...

I'm here if you need me, doll! I know you will figure it all out. Just be the arrow :) And if you need a little time away, Ohio isn't too far ;) Love you! xoxo

Liz Taylor said...

Hi Doll. I haven't talked to you in so long. I hope you're doing well. Thinking about you!!!

Dana + Ryan said...

WE will miss you, but know that prayers are going up for you! He hears our CRY! :) <3

Lynn {hearted girl} said...

growing, learning and developing your deal breakers in life is some kinda hard knocks but well worth the road rash to get there! that quote is so perfect, i'd not heard it before, thanks for sharing the insp lades.

wishing you all the blessings that come with real deal self discovery. may your aim be true and that this time in your life brings you into a newness of 100 watt brights!!! ♥

A Girl In Beta said...

Probably the best analogy for it I've ever heard.

Keep aiming.

That should almost be a tattoo, or something.

Ashley Wright said...

Just stumbled across this from a Google search.. GIRL I think we are kindred spirits. I have been in such a funk lately... and feel so weighed down through comparison to others are a few years of bad decisions. But I recently went to a Making Things Happen seminar with Lara Casey media and I feel so refocused. I don't know where I'm going, but I feel like now I can get there. Wishing you joy and peace and insight into your journey :)