Thursday, January 23, 2014

Everything Has Changed

The other night, as I was getting ready for bed, reflecting on a lot of the big changes that are currently taking place and where I am in life right now, I started thinking about change. More specifically, about how much I have changed as a person. It kind of freaked me out for a second. Like, holy sh*t! I used to be that girl?

I looked back at my life three years ago. Three years. Not too long ago but still a significant amount of time has passed since then. And, well, everything about me has changed. Errrrythang.

The state that I live in.
My hair color.
My marital status.
My religion.
My diet.
My lifestyle.
My style.
My happiness.
My thought process.
My friends.
My family.
My career.
My hobbies.
My ability to handle uncertainty.
My confidence.
My self-image.
My life.

Yep, now you're understanding why I had a "holy sh*t" moment. Everything in my entire life has changed. And then I discovered why. It's not that I have changed, necessarily; that somehow I just became a magical new person and knew how to be happy and surround myself with awesome people and go after my dreams and not give a flying you-know-what what anybody else thinks. No.

Instead, I did something that sounds really simple but for those of you who've been through it too, you know it's easier said than done... I found myself. Really, truly. I stopped trying to impress "what's his face" and stopped comparing myself to "what's her name" and just took the time to get to know everything about myself. About my soul, my heart, my innate being.

Most importantly, I stopped trying to be what I thought I "should" be... whether by my mom's standards, my "friends'" standards, my former church's standards, society's standards, etc. and I just WAS. I AM. I can finally be. And by truthfully, authentically, organically BEING, life is constantly this exciting, amazing, captivating gift and puzzle and blast all at the same time.

This is the woman I was created to be.

Everything has changed. That's life. We wake up everyday with new opportunities and new choices to make. Those choices and shifts that we consciously make for ourselves and for our lives are what create the changes. And, little by little, on days like the one I just had, we look back and say, "holy sh*t!" Some of those changes are painful and some seem impossible to make, others are easy and natural. But, if those changes remain in harmony with our true self, we'll say that "holy sh*t" with a big grin ;)


Jenna Griffin said...

Wow, that is A LOT of change in such a short amount of time. Kudos to you for not caring what other people think and doing what you want and makes you happy. I'm going to be experiencing change soon, and it's a bit scary for me. I hope I can have your confidence!

Anonymous said...

This is great! I'm so happy you have found what makes you happy. But most importantly, you have found you. I'm in the process of finding out what makes me happy, and still trying to figure out me completely. It's no easy task. But I believe, just like you did, it will be a process and I will figure it out like you did :)

Carolyn said...

I'm so very happy for you! :)

Beth said...

you're lucky that you know what you want, how to get it, and aren't afraid to try. not many women (or people) are able to do that. congratulations on working towards discovering it all!

Jenn @ West Sac Honey said...

Gosh darn it this is G-R-E-A-T! I'm so happy for you! I actually just took a new position here at work and maybe that will help me find myself in my career because life is complicated and I feel like I'm trying to tick off the boxes that are "made" for us but really I need to follow whatever it is that makes me happy!

Denise said...

I've followed your blog for a long time and I just love you! Your outlook on life is inspiring! I'm right in the middle of finding myself and it's been such an eye opener. It's amazing how much better things are when you live for YOU and not anyone else! So happy for you, keep it up!

Nats ~Coral Tinted Perceptions said...

I love reading your blog because I feel like I'm growing in a lot of way that you did although I still have some way to go but it's incredibly calming to know that there is a point when I will feel more at peace. Thanks for continuously sharing with your readers...

Ash said...

i LOVE this post so much! as your real friend, no quotes needed, i can definitely affirm your awesomeness and that you have found yourself. i mean, you can just TELL when you are around people like yourself: the confidence levels, the spirit, the attitude, everything is just magnetic and energizing; and you want to be around those people.

and i want to be around you.

and i hate maryland for stealing you away, if only for a relatively small amount of time. i just need some good chelsea energy!

Bailey Schneider said...

Change is amazing and scary, but with your positive outlook, the world is your oyster!
Lovely post

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Girl In Beta said...

Isn't it amazing?

Glad you're doing well.

Regine Karpel said...

Thank you for the post

Holly said...

I'm so glad that I "met" you during this time of "holy sh*tness." You inspire me. You look at life in such a positive way and try to make the best of everything - to see the good. I admire the confidence with which you have made choices in your life these past couple of years and I've truly enjoyed following along on your journey. Like I said, you inspire me to be better. To be the person that I was meant to be. xoxo

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