Monday, December 24, 2012

My Christmas Angel

Merry Christmas to my angel.
This year just won't be the same without your light.
Your energy. Your laugh. Your hugs.

There will be an empty chair at the table.
An empty stocking.
An empty space under the tree.

You started so many of our Christmas traditions.
You gave the most thoughtful gifts and always managed to give me something totally random to throw me off.
We'll all remember the tradition you started of putting hints on the gift tag.
"Who's that one from, Chels?"

I'll miss watching you open your presents but always being the last one to finish because you wanted everyone to open their gifts first.
I'll miss the excitement in your eyes.
I'll miss your messy morning hair and your little slippers.

As we open our presents this year, as we say grace, and as we say goodnight... the moments will be a little more silent.

Christmas will never, ever be the same.
I'll have my angel watching over me.
But I'll always miss my Mom's Christmas hug.

Merry Christmas, Mommy.
We miss you.


Claire Kiefer said...

I'm thinking of you this holiday. I can only imagine that it gets harder this time of year. I hope you feel her spirit with you all the more deeply.

Isa said...

Your post made me teary.

I know how you must feel right now.
My mom died 7 years ago (when I was 23 years).

Christmas is not the same anymore.
I try to get in christmas mood every year since she died but it's not working out.

Big christmas hugs to you and your family !!

Kristen said...

i'm so sorry for your loss, i've been thinking about you this holiday bc i know it will be hard. xoxo

Tiffany said...

God bless you, Chelsea. We lost my Uncle David the day after Christmas last year, so we're struggling to get through our first Christmas without him. I'll say a prayer for your family!


Katrin said...

I miss my Mom too. I can't believe it is already the 10th Christmas without her.
I am thinking of you, Chelsea!
Merry Christmas!

Kristina said...

Thinking of you and your family! I hope you have a nice Christmas. I'm sure your mom is watching over you today and always!

Hilary said...

XO Chels! That's a beautiful pic of you two and just know that she IS with you this Christmas!

Katie Did What said...

Oh, you sweet girl, your mom was so beautiful! You know she'll be there with you this year, smiling down on you and your family. Your Christmas angel. :) Many hugs to you, and merry Christmas, Chelsea!


Preppy Girl Meets World said...

What a beautiful and touching post. Merry Christmas darling. Even though I know you're hurting, I'm sure your mother is smiling down on you knowing that you are carrying on her Christmas traditions. In this small way, she will never truly die.

May the warmth of her smile and the happy memories provide you with a source of love and light this day.

Amber said...

What a sweet post for your mama. I know she is missing you too, and smiling down on you with the same excitement in her eyes while y'all celebrate Christmas! xoxo

SHAYNA said...

I'm getting here a little late but, please know that you were in my thoughts over the weekend & through Christmas. You still are. I know it's not easy & all a little weird. You & your family will begin to find new normals but, she'll always be there celebrating with you! Big hugs to you!

Raquel said...

Awwww thinking of you sweet girl!
Hope you had a great Christmas!

Anonymous said...

Found you on the Blog-Hop from TTWFI.

My condolences and my heart go out to you! But trust me when I say, her spirit is there with you. My great-grandpa actually died on Christmas morning when my grandma was 5 but somehow, grandma always managed to enjoy each season. It's very inspirational to me.

Brittanie said...

Chelsea, this brought me to tears. I wrote you over the summer asking for advice with a friend who was having to say goodbye to her dad from brain cancer. I didn't know what to do or how to act, but you wrote me the most heartfelt and helpful message. It wasn't but 3 weeks after her dad passed away that my dad died from a heart attack. It's weird the rollercoaster life takes you on, especially when it's unexpected, but my heart is with you. This Christmas was extremely difficult not seeing my dad, not having our homemade Christmas gift/idea he always threw our way, and definitely without his hug.

I know we've got some amazing angels looking out for us, but in the meantime just know how helpful your words and blog has been for me!