If I'm being completely honest, I'm at a crossroads right now in life. A big one. Life in San Diego was developing, with its constant ebb and flow. One of the factors in my life continued getting worse and, as I briefly mentioned in my previous post, made me really uncomfortable time and time again. Well, as I'm sure many of you know, when you continue to allow something to be a part of your life that shouldn't be, the Universe is going to pull it right out from under you.
Was the timing ideal in my eyes? No. Is it ideal in the Universe's eyes? Of course. But now I'm stuck here trying to make sense of it all and trying to figure out what's next. I have a lot of little dots and one day I'll see how they all fit together.
In other news, I was little by little easing myself into the vegan lifestyle again and one day, just pulled the trigger and committed to it. The past month has been filled with raw veggies, fruits, and green smoothie goodness! And I must tell you, my body has never looked and felt so good! My skin is clear and has a natural glow! I have great energy and sleep like a rock! I feel full and satisfied after every meal.
Along with my vegan, plant-based lifestyle, I have been exercising about 5 times a week doing cardio and focusing on free weights. In less than a month, I have shed water weight, eliminated all bloating, and fat in my abdomen and back have been zapped and replaced with lean muscle! My arms are easily my most favorite thing to work on at the gym and have never been this toned! :) When life hits you with difficulties, take it all to the gym! I put Katy Perry's "Roar" on repeat and have at it.
The time since I moved to San Diego has flown by. I feel like I have grown in so many ways. San Diego has challenged me. Moving here with no friends, family, or boyfriend/significant other really put me out of my comfort zone and forced me to be 100% independent. I'm grateful for that. But there are still many missing pieces to my puzzle and I trust that the Universe is doing what it must to get me to find the other pieces.
So, really, a lot of life lately is just up in the air. Which, if you know me, you know I'm not typically a "go with the flow" type of person. I like to have things planned. I like to know what I'm heading toward. For now, it's just one day at a time as I see how things unfold.
I admire you. As weird/creepy as that sounds... I just always love reading your perspective, it snaps me back to reality and I'm like 'oh duh, she's so brave to just jump out there... I should challenge myself more'
ReplyDeletefor whatever that is worth... good luck with your crossroads though =/ those are never fun
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ReplyDeleteI started following your blog after realizing we were both doing the Blogtember Challenge. I love this post. It sounds very similar to something I would have written, leaving home and moving somewhere with NO ONE was me last year. The first year or two are always the hardest so keep your head up and trust that you are doing what you're supposed to be. If and when its time to move around, you'll know.
Good luck with everything!
Okay friend, what is going on? Did I miss a post where you explained?! You know I love your outlook on life and how incredibly passionate you are about following your dreams. I truly hope everything is okay :)
ReplyDeleteYou are officially a Californian! Although I don't have the desire or commitment to lead a vegan lifestyle I have a few friends that choose to. It's very admirable. Also, I think SoCal just makes you want to be active. Shorts, tank tops year round will do that to you. Keep it up! :)
ReplyDeleteAlong with these ladies, you know how much I admire you (and your writing) because you always seem to know just what to say and when to say it... I hope everything is alright, and if it isn't, I hope things turn around really soon! Thinking about you on the east coast! Xo
ReplyDeleteI prob say this every time I comment, but you are such an inspiration. I too used to be a control freak but the last year of my life has been unsettling and I'm actually starting to embrace the unknown. I just wrote a post about this too. I agree with you - the Universe has a way of working with you!
ReplyDeleteGreat post! Good for you for getting back into a healthy lifestyle..although I couldn't do vegan(love my cheese too much) I know how good it feels to be healthy and feeling great, both physically and mentally!
ReplyDeleteIt takes a lot of guts to take the chances you have and I think it's natural for you to feel as if you're all over the place but all will be well :)
ReplyDeletex Nats ~ coraltintedperceptions.blogspot.com