On Friday, I wrote about something called My One Word. If you haven’t already, go read about it here because today, I am revealing my ONE word!
I’ve felt an unbelievable amount of growth within myself thus far this year. Just this past month, I’ve felt my heart, soul, and mind grow. I’ve gained knowledge about myself that I never had. I’ve inwardly attacked some of my biggest weaknesses. I’ve embraced my strengths and continued to learn more about them and how I can better use them.
It’s been a process and every day is a new day to learn.
This year has felt different.
I’ve felt different.
Earlier in life, I started off as this conscientiousness, go-getter, totally involved in everything type of girl. Going to every acting school/class I could, student government, captain of my dance teams, writing until my hands fell asleep. I was a dreamer and believed 100% that I could achieve anything I put my mind to. I wasn’t scared of the real world.
Then, as I got older, I started doubting myself. Comparing myself. Underestimating myself. If you asked me to describe myself, I had no idea what to say. I realized that a lot of the time, I was stuck in between this vision of who I wanted to be and the vision of what I thought I was “supposed” to be, how I was supposed to think, and what I was supposed to believe and more importantly, expect from myself and other people.
I’ve finally been able to start putting those “supposed to’s” aside and start figuring out what I want my life to look like.
More importantly, I’ve started doing.
For so long, I’ve had dreams but I’ve second-guessed them or talked myself out of them. For so long, I’ve wanted to tackle my weaknesses. For so long, I’ve been thinking of plans. For so long, I’ve just felt like I spend all my time “figuring out” what I want to do, be, say, etc. that I’ve never actually gotten to that point.
So, I decided on my word this year. It was quite easy to come up with and it’s a word that I’m excited to focus all my attention and efforts to throughout the rest of 2012.
No more talking myself out of things or doubting my talents. No more spending all my time “figuring things out.” It’s time to actually become those things and that woman that I’ve been trying to become all along.
So, this will probably mean I’ll have to channel the sixth grade version of myself when I had no fear and was full of determination and confidence :)
Sure, life was different then, but, the time I have here on this Earth hasn’t changed.
I put myself to work then and I’m putting myself to work now. I’m ready to see the results. I’m ready to become.
I plan to surround myself with prints and pictures like the above.
To surround myself with people who encourage me to become who I really am.
To surround myself with thoughts, words, and sounds that inspire me.
To surround myself with faith and light.
This is my year to become.
After that, my dreams will be at my fingertips. Anything will be possible.
I’m excited to document my progress here on this blog :)
So, now tell me – what’s your word?